Sunday, January 14, 2018
A Little Pity Party for Your Boy Here
The following post is not about the couple featured in the photo above (Pat & Josh). I thought the visual was fitting for the following post. Congrats to this couple and I wish them a lifetime of joy and happiness!
I think you know by now that I am a generally happy and loving guy who is always optimistic, to the point that I have been accused of wearing rose colored glasses through life! But there are some days where I am not quite as strong as usual. Tonight happens to be one of those times.
There is a young man about my age who I am an acquaintance of more than a personal friend, yet I think of him as a friend. He is a nice guy and we met through work. I have not seen him in person throughout 2017 but I would see a few posts here and there on social media. Well, he came out and shared his journey in a beautiful series of posts. I was so happy for him. Then he announced that he was seeing a guy and their photos were posted often on social media. (I feel like they had been seeing each other prior to the announcement but now it was open and very public.) They make an adorable couple and I am happy for them both.
Over the Christmas/New Year's holiday, they were in New York and became engaged. Great romantic photos of the two of them. Again, I was very happy for them and had no real feelings of jealousy. I thought of the pain that he had gone through as he struggled with coming out and thought that it was beautiful that he had no only found the strength to be open about himself but had found his soulmate.
But tonight is one of those night where I am feeling lonely and I am having a little self pity moment. I am happy, independent, financially OK, and healthy...all great things to be thankful about. But there is a part of me that is sad. I see how my friend's face lit up once he was out and then the joy he was experiencing with his newfound love. I honestly am very happy for both of them. I guess I am longing for such and I keep hitting road blocks.
Social media is a great thing but it can make life seem like a storybook fantasy in many ways and I have to remind myself to not judge someone's life based on posts.
So with a glass of wine and a little music playing in the background, I am sharing my thoughts to get them out of my head. Congratulations on being the ones who get to endure my sad night! LOL! I love and appreciate each of you who have read through this and allowed me to share my thoughts. Tomorrow is a new day and I will be better then. And who knows? Mr Right might cross my path this week! I do have the welcome mat out! LOL!